(P.S. When my Mom read this post, She felt really bad that I was in such a confused state. That is when I clarified that, I was in a similar situation, Though not to the extent portrayed here. This was just to show how one would feel, standing at the crossroads of life, And I’ve written this in the first person, to give it a more personal feel. And for all those wonderful people who assured me that the best would happen, Thank you so much , It means a lot! )

( For the past few days I’d been thinking of what I would be doing in the future. That is when I came across this wonderful quote. “When you need to make a decision, toss a coin. That way, you would know what your heart hopes for, when the coin is in the air”. Wish our decisions were as simple as that! )

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My mind keeps wandering.
I’m not sure which direction to take.
Should I just go with the flow?
Or set a path for myself?
Should I take the Road Less Travelled,
Or look for something secure?
Should I let things happens the way they would,
Or define the way things should happen?
I’m confused.
For the first time,
My mind asks my heart for an opinion.
They usually never seem to agree
Or talk with each other.
Now they’ve decided to work together,
For the poor soul who awaits their decision.
I’m unsure of what I really want.
This or that?
Now or later?
Am I too slow or too fast
In taking a decision?
My heart is set on something.
I’m doing something else.
I’m trying to bridge the gap between
What I’m doing and what I would like to do.
Will I be successful?
Will I get what I desire?
Am I doing the right thing?
Should I have taken a decision sometime back?
Or were I too immature to take such a decision?
Is this the right time to make the change?
Is this the right time to jump across the gap?

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Should I learn to be content with what I have?
Or should I try to achieve what my heart beats for?
Am I capable of doing it?
I might dream big,
But am I capable of pulling it off?
Is it important to be realistic or to be optimistic?
Is my mind being influenced by others’ actions?
Or is my heart really set on it?
If only I could get the answers to all this!
One decision, which could change the next few years of my life.
One decision, which would have a huge impact on my life.
Years later, when I look back at what I’ve done all this while
I would be reminded the day I took the decision.
Would I be Content or filled with regret?
Only time will tell.
One decision.
So small yet so huge!
So simple, yet so Complicated!
~Ashwini